Taco Tuesday

And we are on to day two!

Today so far has been a little bit better.  I am learning that I need to spend some quality time planning and doing quite a bit of math, my least favorite subject.  Success is going to be a lot harder than I want it to be.

In fact, I had a great discussion with a coworker today.  My coworker who happens to be my trainer's mother!  She was showing me the progress of her youngest daughter who has lost 70 pounds since April of this year.  I felt hopeful and excited, but also hesitant.  I struggle with patience.  I always become defeated in my weight loss journey and goals because I simply cannot wait for my results.  This causes frustration and the want to give up, which I essentially do.  My least favorite saying is "Do not expect to lose weight quickly... you put it on a pound at time."

LIES.  ALL LIES.

First of all weight loss quote, you do not know me!  I can cite specific weekends in which I gained 5 pounds in two days.  A WEEKEND.  I wish I was able to lose weight in the same way.  Now I will chalk part of that up to my struggles with my digestive system, but still.. come on.

The sad part of my weight loss is that it is going to take time.  Unfair!  I need to buckle down and plan.  Success is in the details.  In my discussion today I also decided to hold off on some of my gym expectations.  I think it is wise to nail the food part and slowly add in the gym.  I will still go and simply use the treadmill to aid in reaching my daily step goal.

So after I left the gym today I headed to the grocery store to get a few things for dinner... taco Tuesday!  I must have spent 30 minutes in the store getting 3 things.  I was scrolling away through MyFitnessPal figuring out numbers.  I am still off on my Macro numbers, but I am a little closer today.  I hope to be even closer tomorrow!

I was also successful in another gallon of water down! Woooohoooo!

1741 Calories          164 g Carbs          62 g Fat          74 g Protein

Breakfast:
1. Coffee
2. 1 T Light Cream
3. Thomas' Corn English Muffin
4. 1 T Butter
5. 1 Fried Egg
6. Slice of Pepper-jack cheese

Lunch:
1. 4 Slices Thin n Trim Virginia Ham
2. 2 Slices American Cheese
3. 1 C Cucumber slices
4. 1/2 C Blackberries
5. 1 Square Ghiradelli 86% Chocolate

Snack - Throughout the Day:
1. 2 Clementines
2. 1/2 C Blackberries
3. Yoplait Whips! Vanilla Cupcake
4. 1/2 C Caramel Corn

Dinner:
1. 3 Corn Tortilla Shells
2. 4 oz 85% Ground Beef
3. Medium Plum Tomato
4. 1/2 C Shredded Lettuce
5. 2 T Shredded Taco Cheese
6. 1 T Medium Taco Sauce

The best part of today was wine.  I needed some more calories and carbs when I realized the most perfect solution.  I am quite thankful for those empty calories tonight.

Cheers to you!  May you have more patience than me!

Day One

Woof.  I am so tired!  Last night was rough, not a good night sleep.  I tossed and turned and had the strangest dreams. Le sigh.

But... I said I would check in and you bet I am!

I am still struggling to find a balance with my eating.  I find it difficult to hit those actual Macro Goals.  If I focus on protein, I wind up off on the others.  Today I am slightly over on protein and fat, but below in calories and carbs.  Womp womp.

So without further ado... my food for the day!

Breakfast:
1. Thomas' Corn English muffin, toasted
2. A fried egg
3. 1 slice pepper jack cheese
4. Pat of butter
5. 1/4 C pomegranate seeds
6. 1 cup coffee
7. 1 T light cream

Lunch:
1. 2 oz deli ham
2. 1 oz American Cheese
3. 1 C sliced cucumber
4. 2 clementines
5. 1 square Ghiradelli 86% Dark Chocolate

Snack:
Quest Bar Cookies and Cream

Dinner
1. Salmon with mustard and panko bread crumbs
2. 12 pieces of asparagus in olive oil
3. 1/4 C rice
4. 1/4 C Talenti Caribbean Coconut
5. 2 T Cool Whip

My daily Macros for this are about 1,363 calories, 130 g carbs, 63 g fat, 86 g protein.  OFF. ugh.

The good thing is that I did not feel that hungry until dinner time.  I brought back my gallon of water which kept most of my appetite at bay, plus the added lemon made it a lot better.  The kids sure got a laugh watching me chug it down without a cup.

As for the gym I admit I am slightly defeated.  I had a meeting after school which ran a lot later than I had anticipated.  I still went and made sure to get in about 20 minutes on the treadmill.  It was better than grading math tests!

Now I am here, watching the X Files and calling it a night!   Hoping for a better night of sleep, it is supposed to help in this journey! 

Until tomorrow...

Down and Out

Do not get me wrong.  I LOVE THE FALL.  In fact, it is easily my favorite time of year.  Cooler weather, crisper air, and good food.  Not to mention the adding of layers to my clothing, blankets, and prime snuggling.  Unfortunately, as with most things, the season has some negatives that go with it.  One of the major ones is the time change.  I am someone who is completely unsettled by it.  It is weird, how the change in an hour can change so much more, including the way I think and feel.

I suffer from depression, and the changing of the seasons is usually the hardest.  I have fought really hard to stay on top of it, but I am admittedly slacking.  My brain is completely fogged.  I feel so sleep deprived and it seems like I just cannot catch up!  I have been battling a headache for at least a week now.  It was only at the worst on my day off, phew!

I decide that now more than ever, I needed to refocus back on my health.  The whole 10 pounds up and 10 pounds down is getting tiring in itself.  I have lost control.  So I found myself in luck when a coworker mentioned her daughter was in school for nutrition and was a certified personal trainer.  She mentioned that she had helped her sister lose 70 POUNDS AND COUNTING.... Can you say sold?!  After receiving her card, I headed over to Victoria Shipp Fitness.  I simply sent her an email to start the process.  After talking over a few things it was decided that I would sign up for her 12 week macro nutrition program ($45) and 2 week gym training ($35).

I kept a food log for three days and waited for her response.  I was happy she could immediately see what I had forgotten to tell her.  I have a protein problem.  I feed this protein problem with a bigger carbohydrate problem.  Not eating enough protein has caused me to be a snacker, and I make less than desirable choices for myself.

Last Monday I started the first week.  My goals are 1,546 calories, 176g of carbs, 60g of fat, and 80g of protein.  Remember that these numbers have been specifically tailored to my life, I cannot recommend them for you as we are not the same!  This first week has been really hard, and I slipped up some days.  I am logging everything into MyFitnessPal, but it is definitely a big change.  I actually think some of my headache is almost like a withdrawal from all that junk.  It kept me out of the gym, I went one day. Oops.

All that being said I realized how I could fix it... BLOG... duh!  So for this second week before my check in, I will blog everyday about what I do.  It is like a check in before the check in!  Each night I will log what I eat, and post a gym selfie.  I MUST GET TO THAT GYM!

I am off to plan, plan, plan!  Followed by grocery shopping... booo.

Happy Sunday!